nothing's gonna change my world...

Would love to go 'across the universe' right now. Gettin' antsy, or, I've been antsy for a while now. The topic of change came up today between Travis and I...so now I'm inevitably asking myself if people are capable of change? Or the micro-picture here, are we capable of change? We are both unhappy with our current states. For both of is it's a matter of employment. And ambition. And circumstance. And for me, it is also a literal matter of current state. Last night I dreamt of moving to Washington State. Something different. New territories to explore. Just the two of us. Well, the four of us. Can't forget Prudence & Mayfield. Sure it sounds whimsical, but it's not the first time I've slightly considered it. There's nothing holding us back here. We're going to have to move sooner or later, why not 3,000 miles away?

I could see if there was a specific reason to move there, like a job or school, but there really isn't other than some form of escapism. I'm afraid of falling further into a rut. Need a change of scenery, need a change of pace. But none of that will change my face. It will not change who I am or my past, I'm still stuck with me...

What should we be doing? SHOULD is a shitty term. It's just absolutely soaked in false expectations that we somehow put on ourselves. Should we be following our dreams, whatever they may be? Well guess what? My dreams are limited in that aspect. My dreams consist of random moves to different states and countries. To see what life is like somewhere else, although to undoubtedly find at the end, it doesn't matter where you are. There you are.
On the topic of false expectations and this whole 'shoulding' crap, the reality is exactly that. THE REALITY. What is possible exactly at that point in time. Shit happens. Shoulds happen. Life happens. Love happens. Falling apart happens. And then there's everything else that happens while things are happening.

But what is happening right now? A big question mark is happening. On what to do next. What should I do next?